could someone tell me that noone is perfect? please, someone reassure me? i duno how im feeling now, just feeling a bit lost and a bit out of place and awkward at times. started reflecting on the wrongs i have done so far, couldnt tink of any during primary school , maybe some crimes include pulling my female classmates' hair and stuff. nothing much, secondary school nearly stole my good fren's girlfren. haiya. lucky everything went back into place, but somehow my good fren and i got distant. i guess we can no longer be the good frens anymore. omg. how come i so brave and truthful suddenly . spurt everything out. haiya. more or less not bothered alredy since As coming and everyone s gonna part again.noone will hear abt me anymore. and yar, in jc now. what did i do? so much for the flirting, kinda of. but that doesnt affect me that much. well, another ting troubling and worrying me more, backstabbed my good fren. i didnt know it will turn this bad,and i tried everything i can do just to salvage it. but i guess its impossible to make a difference now, maybe i shall lay down and just let go of it, anyway we gonna part again after As, why bother abt this while As is just round the corner? but something in me keeps telling me this meant a lot to me, yet i cant do much abt it.haiya. im at fault lah. i admit,i admit, i admit. im really sorry, but can i have a chance? indeed noone is perfect, but again i learnt that chances and forgiveness are not always complimentary gifts after one makes his mistakes. i dun tink i will have the chance to salvage the situation now. looking back at these stupid mistakes that i make at each point of my life makes me feel like a bastard, and made me wonder if i have matured throughout these years? how many more mistakes more will i have to make before i finally become a perfect person? so can someone reassure me that nooone is perfect and everyone makes mistakes? its guilt all these while.
emoemoemokid infect me ; 8:28 AM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
The first battle has ended. finally ended. but nightmare is reviving in a few days time, today should be the day for resting my mind since i have no paper tml - MOCKS AT ALL MY CLASSMATES - haha, simply an enjoyment to drop physics,no regrets. lucky i didnt drop econs,cox i just love it so much ( except for the case study ) and let me tell you how the terrible week went. first as usual, i think im gonna fail my gp paper because i wrote out of point.i tink totally out of point, but i blurt in a lot of rubbish. like how belize has the largest coral reef in the northern hemisphere and how smog engulffed the Mexico city. econs paper 3 was quite alrite,did all the 3 questions which i studied on. and it wasnt that bad ,and chem. " HOW TO NOT GET AN A FOR CHEM " ( try to imply the difficulty of the chem paper ) and make sure you read the sarcasm in between the line. and last math paper 1, WHY SO DIFFICULT LAH ! its a bad week , with a low confidence level of 5 %, with this, im sure how well i wil do for my stats paper 2 ):
emoemoemokid infect me ; 5:45 AM
Friday, September 08, 2006
haiya, past few days have been slacking as usual. alright, revised role of government till part 3 in 3 days. excellent speed.haiya. super guility now,and i realised i haven been doing much. sleeping and dota-ing the entire day. can someone knock some sense out of me? am i overly-confident or what? HELP HELP HELP. recently visited youtube for old mv of jay and i realised that indeed the song sounds much nicer with the whole package. i love mv because there is always a different story to a song, and it just entertains me! (: anyway im in a bad mood, and till i study enough, mood is in nowhere near GOOD. my favourite song a while ago-
Hey Mr. Curiosity Is it true what they've been saying about you Well are you killing me You took care of the cat already And for those who think it's heavy Is it the truth Or is it only gossip Call it mystery or anything Oh just as long as you call me I sent the message on did you get it when I left it Said well this catastrophic event It wasn't meant to mean no harm But to think there's nothing wrong is a problem, oh
I'm looking for love this time Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry (Trying not to ask why) This love is a mystery Mr. Curious...
Come back to me I'm a mr. waiting on and never patient can't you see That I'm the same the way you left me, left me In a hurry to spell check me And I'm underlined already in envy green And then to red And I've forgotten what you've said Will you stop working for the dead and return
A mr. curious well I need some inspiration It's my birthday and I cannot find no cause for celebration The scenario is grave but I'll be braver when you save me From this situation laden with hearsay, oh
I'm looking for love this time Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry (Trying not to ask why) This love is a mystery Mr. Curiosity Hey mr. please Do come and find me, oh Oh, come on oh, yea yea
I'm looking for love this time Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry (Trying not to ask why) Cause love is a mystery Mr. curiosity Hey mr. please Do come and find me
Love is blinding when your timing's never right Oh but who am I to beg for difference Finding love in a distant instant But I don't mind Oh love at least I tried, well I tried...
jason mraz- MR. curiosity-the chorus is really nice (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 10:40 AM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
well,i saw this super hot netballer in school that day. when she passed me,she gave me a grin,or shd i say a smile,a smile that melted my heart instantly. her smile was that infectious and somehow she brightened my day. come to think abt it, we are together for almost a year. she has been always there for me. during rainy days,we shared the same umbrella. during hot weather,she held the umbrella for me to ensure i wasnt burnt anymore. we went genting and there, we shared our happiest times together, we dated under the roller coaster, and stormed into the ghost house with hands together. omg. i tink im writing a lot of bullshit,HAHA. anyway this entry is especially for melissa fu xun ru. anyway one thing true abt this entry is that i reli reli reli find her name NICE. cya XUN RU (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 7:11 AM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
my mum told me i am born to make people happy, and when they hug me, they will feel happy.
now that you know this secret of mine, will you have the courage to hug me? or shall i say, do u have the courage to try it out?
adapted from somewhere. and i find it really interesting.
emoemoemokid infect me ; 7:11 AM
Monday, September 04, 2006
haa, i tink im improving day by day,im less addicted to the computer now, i ddint blog yesterday! -pat on the back- wells, went studying at bishan cc today,and the place ( the coffee-shop ) was flooded with ajcians. yups, tried very hard to finish up some ten year series,and i tink i managed to complete some. yup, was watching smallville yesterday and came across one special episode of a boy who aged at an astonishing speed, within three days he aged and died. it set me thinking abt how im gonna react if my fren was ageing so rapidly and in the blink of an eye, he passes away in front of me. it sounds super spooky. hmm, also i cant imagine how my feelings will be to see somone so close to me pass away just like that? what if one day i age that extremely fast? well, im still tinking what i wanna complete b4 my life ends. maybe visit the disneyland or sutmthing, okay, im stupid. hmm, how abt burning the whole office down and save everyone from prelims? alright, the latter will made me a superhero b4 i die (:
emoemoemokid infect me ; 5:41 AM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
fcuk man,promised to really study today and looks like mission failed miserably today again, only revised ppart 1 of role of government. wtf. super slack, then watched some hong kong movie with brother on the dvd. its super retarded but im glad to say that its the first hong kong movie that left me a great impression since a long time. its some gay movie lah. i mean not really gay. its abt this retard ( i mean he is really retarded ) and he gets involved with this pimp. and somehow the pimp cons this retard into selling his body to woman. for some, you might be " yucking " right now, but in this movie, i saw sumthing through. that is, a retard could make a true fren, and why is it that even ordinary ppl like us cannot be true frens, i heard abt people stabbing one another from behind, betrayal and stuff. that makes life ironic, even a retard with intelligence lower than 70, can be true and do the most sincere stuff in the world to protect his fren, and why is that difficult for " NORMAL " ppl like us who has IQ abt 120 ( or 140 ) do things that might hurt ppl close to us. haha. maybe another lesson for me (: realised that the more normal we are, the more complicated we get. maybe thats why ppl say life is compplicated, wells, i guess not. its us.
anyway i like this mtv. its like super old, but somehow i like the pessimism within the song, and the mtv looks really " shy " heh heh
http://youtube.com/watch?v=XOTz_dHP5vQ
emoemoemokid infect me ; 4:45 AM
Friday, September 01, 2006
haha, i went to peep at blogs everywhere and somehow somewhere someway i found some super cheesy but sweet line, i tink im damn good to my frens especially those who read my blog. haha. heres a pick up line, maybe not so much of pick up line for youuuuuuuuu
i woke up crying from a dream, i was shot dead through the heart. i cried. not because i was afraid to die, but because in my heart, i knew you were in there.
